My 200th post.

I am not in an exactly good mood now. Not cos of anyone in particular but due to my lack of discipline these few days. I srsly don't know what has happened to me because recently my focus is srsly off. Even when there are no distractions and just my work in front of me, I can just start to stone and basically 放空. That can actually last for like 10 mins before I try to shake myself awake. In this way, I always end up wasting lotss of time. I do have revision to do and this kind of me is not helping at all. Okay, it's not like I'm lacking way behind or I am dead for sure or something. I'm still fine i think. Just that, this side of me is really starting to get on my nerves. I really need to find some way to solve this problem. Any suggestion guys???
Okay, I doubt anyone is even going to reply to this qn of mine considering the fact that no one did for the last one. Oh well, everyone's busy right. No choice. I guess I'm the only free one around.

Anyway, my dad just came back from this 7th month dinner. He was telling us about how he met this new friend who's daughter is extremely smart. She managed to get some very pro scholarship which I kinda forgot the name, to go to USA to study for 4 years. Total amount the government is giving for the education is $620,000. And that girl also gets a salary of $2000 per month while studying. How cool right. I did kinda wonder why I am not as smart and pro as her and obviously this is because both our intelligence lie in different areas. I am still trying to aim for my SIA scholarship. It definitely is not going to be easy. But I will try for it. I need to study well!!!! I hope that I will be able to achieve a goal for once.

study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!

-希

So the barbecue was okay. Hope bel enjoyed her birthday. Lots of people came. But not as much as I expected. Ate ate ate, stood around. Chat for a while. Talked to madcow abt dreams and blablabla. Basically was like that. Cannot blame bel for not keeping us company cos she was soooo busy with a lot of calls and had to talk to a lot of her other friends. Nonetheless, was happy to see her. Somehow, makes me look forward to my class chalet in November! Ha.

I'm a bad kid. I didn't keep up with the schedule that I did up. I guess I have to push everything back. But I'm glad I finished some retarded work that I had to do. Super hard and stupid. Plans for tmr is to study accounting and do some papers. Hope I will be able to do all that by 7pm so that I can bathe at 7pm and watch tv at 7.30pm! Yay!

Anyway, I've got a really serious question to ask you all.
Am I a really evil person to the point that I hurt people???
Yes, please answer this question truthfully. Your feedback will be useful for future reference. Your attention is much appreciated. Thank you!

HAHAHA!

-希

There are times when you feel disappointed when you don't seem as important as others in someone's eyes. Don't you? Sometimes, it's just not meant to be. Shall take it as it goes. See where I will end up at. Cherish your impt friends yeah?

-希

I am badmooding now. Feeling very unhappy and annoyed. About wat? I don't know. My moodswings again. I don't really know wat to say now but I know I want to say something.Ok nvm, I shal just talk abt something.

So, firstly, Yesterday's cycling was really fun. I don't know why it was fun. I just felt very happy. I don't think you all understand what I am saying. Ok, it's like normally if I went for this kind of outings with not very fun people I won't think that the outing was fun. But for yesterday, I still thought that it was fun. Yeah.
But there was one scary part. I honestly felt like I don't know what to do. Sometimes there are just some people who don't seem that much they way they are on the surface. We need more patience to straighten our thoughts to handle scary situations well. Anyway, someone definitely owes me a good explanation on what actually happened. If you are reading now, be prepared. But I doubt you are reading too. I will soon declare the second person from class failed from reading my blog. Soon.
Recently, I am turning more and more, how to say, erm, straightforward? I prefer more straightforward forms of expression. Like, I really don't like it when people keep things within themselves. I won't don't like them for that. But I will feel veryyyyy annoyed for not being able to know what they actually feel. Be it because of me or not, I don't care. They better tell me, if not I will feel unhappy. In a way, I think it's good cos I am more and more true to myself. However, I think it is very bad too cos I will slowly turn very blunt? I don't know. Sometimes, I keep telling myself that I need to control what I am saying. Not everyone can take it. For example my suans and sarcasm. There are people outside with very weak hearts. I need to control my self if not I will just give them a heart attack. I am trying. Trying to be more quiet. But it takes time yeah. If only I can know how much every person I am in contact in can take. Like that, I will know what to say. Don't tell me to stop being sarcastic or stop suaning people. I can't. It really is in me alrd. Sadly. Life will be even more boring without all these tools.

Saturday will be Bel's birthday party at ecp again. I think I will most probably meet madcow then go together or something. The train ride from Pioneer all the way to Bedok is just tooo much to bear. DAMNNNNN LONG!!!! I am excited to see excos again. But I am also scared to meet more people, esp. AC people. I am quite sure tons of them will come. I don't want to have weird feelings. I will most probably keep to the excos. If they happen to somehow abandon me, I will go to seaside and emo. HAHA! I actually like it. It feels good.HAHA!

Anyway, I feel soo much better aft typing all these. I know you guys are busy and most probably won't be seeing this anytime soon. Study hard people! Do well and be promoted okay! All the best guys! I will also do my best for the exams. I need to cover alot of chapts i am not good in. Everyone just press on! Me too! I am looking forward to the 5 weeks of holidays aft my 2weeks of exam!!!

-希

SO today was that dialogue session with sec 4s thingy. Overall was okay. I hope they come to SP tourism! Haha, the choice is still up to them. Just hope that they won't regret. Heard that Charmaine wants to switch from poly to JC next year. Wow, unusual sight. But she really didn't look like the poly type. Hahaha, I hope i don't turn out to be like her. Talked to Laila and friends, those from G3 this year. Quite a fun and nice bunch. Their prelims are coming really soon. Just like my exams. Shucks, I need to start studying, for real. When I went back today, I rediscovered some of my fears which i shall not mention. Didn't feel too good. All I have to say is, some people are really not for me. I have been harping on this for quite a while. But I srsly think this is soooo true.There are so many worries in life that cause people to come tumbling down from where they are...
I want class outing! I want to go cycling! At ECP! Love it, mannn!

Okay, I'm speechless once again.
Shall come back when I find something to say.

-希

Okay, I don't know why I am still awake now. I refuse to sleep. hahahahahaaha.
I feel very exposed now. 2 people from my class know abt my blog. okay, technically one for now. Since the other one kinda gave up looking i guess. hahaha!

Anyway, today was the YOG JYOF thingy. You know, the flame thingy. yeah,so i was at SP cheering. I mean, waiting for a long time then cheering. hahaha. even though we didn't do much, it was still fun! HAHA! Class bonding. Got free coke, which resulted in classmates bring tons of them home. two of them brought 6 bottles home. Highest record, 8 BOTTLES. Yes, Devy Aprilina that is you. Hahaha,yeah, don't be surprised, my class is full of cheapskate people.HAHAHA!

2mr is the dialogue session thing in crescent. Yeah, and once again I turned evil. And I shall not disclose how I was evil. I want to share my experiences. But I doubt I will get that chance since I saw how many poly kids they were inviting. There were quite a few. And how great, I don't know practically all of them. WOW, I LOVE THIS! yeah, so. i will just see how it goes tmr. And see if I should let my evil side come out. Shall see!
Oh, sometimes i really wonder if i will get retribution for being soooo evil. But, you know, i don't really mean it. SO yeah, dear gods, don't blame me okay! hahaha! Stupid, i know. hahahaha!

And some people just really need to stop finding out who all the "he"s i am talking about. They have no meaning. Okay, that Devy Aprilina person out there. thanks ah. hahaha!

okay, i don't know wat to say.
byebye
-希
~hi devy! *waves enthusiastically*~

HELLOW WELLOW MELLOW KELLOW FELLOW RELLOW SELLOW LELLOW YELLOW
DEVY.
HA.
NONONONONO HA!

-希

Hello persons out there.

I am currently very annoyed cos I am freaking bored. I want to watch something but don't know anything good to watch. BORED!!!! I think I will just end up doing revision papers.

Haven't been updating for a long time. So yeah, here goes.
Most recent thing that happened, Seoul Garden-ed with EXCOS. Quite satisfying but not VERY satisfied maybe cos I have been visiting Seoul Garden for the past I dunno how many years. Time for them to change their menu. Anyway, felt really happy when I met the EXCOS, haven't seen them in ages.Generally, everyone's still the same. Ate and ate and ate. Towards the end, took pictures, blablabla. I felt really terrible during the taking pictures part. Reason being I was feeling SUPER uncomfortable laughing and wanting to burp at the same time. Get it? It's like there is gas stuck right in your windpipe and you can't get it out. In fact, it felt as though there was something pushing the gas out and something pushing the air in at the same time. Superrr painful. And I laughed all thanks to stupid fart who was cursing the polaroid camera. HAHAH! Now that I think of it, it is still freaking funny.
What happened was:
Joey's camera had some problem so she wanted to test the camera. When Ann heard it she was saying how Joey should take a picture of her. Then stupid fart said something like how it will burst into flames immediately. HAHAHA, OMG, DAMNNN FUNNY!!! Super funny if you imagine how it will be like.
Hahaha, then another part worth cracking up was fart being HEARTLESS!
Slygirl had to leave first and when she said, "ok, i need to go now." All fart said was, " k bye." in a SUPER heartless and don't care tone. STUPID! hahaha, damn funny.
Then went home with my already huge but turned even more huge tummy. Super tired when I reached home.

Hahaha, so yeah, HOLIDAYS and study week starts now!

Plans for holidays!
- NOTHING.
sad right? Yeah, I know. Too bad, I am not at all a happening person. That's why my classmate was so happy for me when I said I was going for seoul garden. He said,"YAY! CYNTHIA HAS FRIENDS!". =.=

Yeah, that's all for now.
I bet not everyone read all the way up till here.

-希