TIME NOW: 3AM IN THE MORNING!

AND WHY AND I STILL AWAKE?!

BECAUSE

MY

RESULTS

ARE

OUT!!!!!!!!












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YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY GPA 4.0 MAINTAINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!








HAPPINESS OVERLOAD!!!!!!!!



MY DEARS! YOUR FRIEND HERE DID IT!!!!! AND YOU CAN DO IT TOO!!!!! I BELIEVE IN YOU ALL JUST LIKE HOW YOU ALL DID IN ME!!! DO YOUR BEST OKAY! THE RACE IS ENDING SOON! END IT WELL AND AWESOMELY!!! ALL THE BEST! DO YOUR BEST! BE THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JIAYOU!!!!!!


-希！

Hi!

Back once again. I guess it's always when you are free, you start to notice more and more problems that you would have been to busy to realise amidst the hectic work schedule.

Maybe I shouldn't have shared. If I didn't share, I wouldn't have this stronger urge to "update" them all the time. While I would be more than willing to "update", I am more afraid. I am afraid of how people will start to find me annoying. I guess I should hold them a bit. But in a way, can't blame me too! I can "update" the whole world!!! No choice but to tell you all right!

Ahhh, but what my intuition tells me is that I should hold back a bit. Cap it like how I previously did! Freak, so annoying and yet I can't don't care abt it. -.-

-希

Hello! I am back! Seems like I've been gone for quite a while huh.
Just read this from art's blog, "its sad tt i have ppl in my life tt dont mean anything to me." Really, i feel the same way. As much as I would love to be nice to everyone and really love all of them, I just don't. In fact, I really don't care what happens to them. Ha, maybe that is the reason I am starting to get a lot less friendlier. Kinda makes it easier for me to be less superficial. Hopefully. Haha!

Don't really know what's wrong with me nowadays but this feeling of emptiness and real unhappiness or just blankness is starting to hit on me strongly. Last time, when I said I don't know why I am unhappy, I was just lying. Ha! I knew very well why. But this time, it is different. Really! Not lying! This feeling of needing to tell someone something but nth just comes out. There is something I really want to say but I don't know what. I need enlightenment. Haha! Sounds really stupid to be fretting over such trivial stuff right? But it really is starting to affect me and annoy me. It's leaving me hanging.

There are sooo many things I am really looking forward to but at the same time, I am so scared of them happening. Cos sometimes, the feeling of expectations not being fulfilled and hopes being dashed are kinda sucky. I keep telling myself not to hope for so much for it really is not gonna happen. At least I know that I am not allowing anything to happen. But still, deep down inside my heart it just lingers. Sucks. Haha! emo emo emo. Weird ha, emoing normally only happens at night. Well, that's for me at least!

Ahhh, there is chapter meeting tmr! Really hate facing the guys. So sucky to work with them. Useless bunch. Bet they aren't gonna listen to any one of us. They are just gonna play with their phones, play those stupid games. Not gonna give us any bit of respect. How I wish the unacas guys replace them. No matter how boring or stupid it is, they will still give us the basic respect and not laugh at us. Maybe a 'girls only' will be good too. AHHHH! My class guys suckssssssssssss! Srsly hate them! Hate how useless they are and yet they dare make comments that crush our self esteems. arghhhh! okay chillllll....

-希

Hi there!

Still not asleep at this time. Because my crazy friends skyping with me. But I'm kinda bored. Haha!
Don't know why but feeling unknowingly unhappy. Maybe cos I kinda made someone angry? And maybe cos it's a guy? Kinda scary cos I haven't made a guy angry before. But he says he isn't. So confusing. Haha. Oh well, we shall see how. Hope everything turns out well.

Finally sent my phone for servicing. That crazy phone of mine. Hope I would get it back soon. Haha!

There is night cycling tmr! Kinda happy. But not thattttt happy too. Cos my class doesn't seem to be as fun anymore. There seems to be a lack of excitement. But good thing, ECP! I love ecp! If only I lived at mamo's house. I can see the sea everyday! yay!

I think im really an AB type. I can be sooo emo so easily. Hahaha! Right now, I don't feel like talking at all. Feeling so tired. So sick of so many things. I really feel like going back to the crescent times with my clique, exco. Miss them so much. Miss their company so much. Everyday was so funny and fun. Loved the days we laughed till our stomachs hurt. I will never ever forget those days! I hope one day my daily dreams will bring me back to the laughing days! Let me relive them please! While I am thinking of all these, my heart feels so heavy. Feeling so down. Ah, my moodswings.

Haha, I think I've crapped enough. Goodnight! Be happy and laugh more okay! Cherish every moment you laugh!

-希

Hi everyone!

Holidays are officially here! omg, like finally! Even though our term was short. But it was kinda terrible.Insane projects! Good thing holidays are here. But bad thing is I have 3 projects to do. ahhhh, I'm gonna die.

Sorry but I'm not in a very good mood right now. So, pardon me uh!
Just gonna give updates abt my life. Haha, my tummy just growled! Right word to use?

Returned from JB for my immersion trip just abt 2 weeks ago! Kinda fun but things seemed to have changed. My love for my class lessened. Sadly. As much as I hate it, it is happening. But I think it will recover slowly. Hopefully.

I find some things really ____(can't find a word to describe). It's so sad how some people are really fun to be with. But after some time, you will start to see the ugly side and your "love" for that person really drops. As time passes, you start to discover so many negative things abt this person. Things will really change. If only, this doesn't happen. Life will be so good with forever fun and forever nice friends.
Oh well, nvm, let's move on.

This year will be a really insane and hectic year full of madness! Pray that I will survive okay? Haha! I hope my gpa will not be too undesirable. PLEASE!
By the looks of how I am studying right now, really risky.
For all the law tutorials, I taught myself and did everything on my own understand from my own learning. Why? Thanks to the immersion programme, 3 weeks of law lecture were cancelled. Only made up all in one day like 2 days ago. haha! Oh well, we shall see what happens. Hope miracles can happen. I don't wanna screw up!!! At least not too badly okay?

One good/bad news! I am officially a SP Scholar! Haha, that's a good thing but bad thing at the same time. Cos I gave up trying for RWS Scholarship. I thought I wouldn't get in for SP's interview. But who knows. Haha, yeah.
For the RWS scholarship, i went for first round of interviews with my lecturer. I thought a few spaces will be given to us for that one. But turned out to be 1 scholarship per polytechnic. Oh my god. That meant that I would have to compete with the smart people in my cohord and my seniors! So right, I wasn't putting too much hopes. But turned out that my lecturer shortlisted me as top 5. She wanted to put me through for the interview with RWS alrd. omg. But sadly, the timing didn't fit well enough for me to choose if SP scholarship or maybe RWS. I might not get that ONE slot right! So my parents told me not to risk it. Sighhh... $4000 flew away~~~ But one good thing is I still get a chance to go orlando then! Wee! Well, at least I have $2400+! Better than nth right? But will be embarrassing if I don't get scholarship next year. ahhhhhh! Scary!!!!

Nvm, shall not think too much. Just gonna do my best!
Haha! You all do your best too okay! Jiayou my friends! Really missed you all ALOT!
WU YUAN PING, CHEN MAN LING, DA DOU SHA BING SHA ZI CHEN JIA YING!!!!

-希

HELLO MY LOVES!!!!!

I GOT GOOD NEWS TO SHARE WITH YOU ALL!!!!!
I got shortlisted by one of my course lecturers to try for Resort World Sentosa scholarship!!! Yay!!! haha! I am one of the 10 people she chose from the course! All thanks to my GPA, that's why I get all these awesome opportunities!!!
This scholarship gives me $4000 a year!!! Yay! That means sch fees will be covered and I still have extra money!!! Wooo!!!! But that bad thing is i would have to do internship in RWS meaning, NO MORE ORLANDO! NO MORE DISNEYWORLD! NO MORE USA! wahhhh! Kinda sad.

Another cool thing is right before i got news of me being offered RWS scholarship, I just went for SP Scholarship interview! HAHAHA! SP scholarship covers only school fees and apparently, we have to pay for gst. -.-
Oh well! Hope I get one of those, or best, BOTH!!!! WOOO!!!!!

haha! That's all for now!

NIGHTS!

-希

Hello everyone!!!!

It's been ages since I updated my blog. I know. Hahaha! Lazy uh!

As requested by Valencia Tan Man Ling, I shall give a quick update!

During the holidays, I meant MY POLY holidays! Hahaha!
After my exams, I prepared for my Cambodia CIP trip. Eventually, I went, duh!
It was a 14 day trip! Very fruitful! One thing I will never regret and forget in my whole life! What I did there? Our main mission there was to teaching English to the kids in an orphanage called UNACAS. However, that was only in the night. SO basically, our usual day at UNACAS went like that.

7.30am-breakfast
8.30am-leave for either construction of house or construction of fence
11.30am- lunch
12.30pm-go back to rest(only for fencing team)(Housing team continues to work aft lunch)
2.30pm- Work starts for fencing team.
5.30pm- End work, goes back to rest.
6pm- Dinner at UNACAS
7pm- English lesson
8pm- Dancing practice
9- Wash-up
10.30- De-Brief
11.30- Sleeping time!

That was how our day went. Roughly. Haha! Sounds boring but was really fun! Awesome people were in my team! Hahaha! Miss them a lot. We still keep in touch every alt. weeks. Haha!

Anyway, I took up korean! haha! Like finally! Korean is really fun! At least for now! My teacher is a singaporean though. Hope I will do well!

Oh, for those who still didn't know, I got selected to be the Vice-chairman of my course's student chapter. Basically like a student council but only for my course. haha! Haha, dunno how well I will do. Hope I do well!

My year 2 started. Rather scared. Sounds really stupid but I am scared that I cannot maintain my gpa 4. Haha, though I know it will most probably drop.

I miss my 4G3 clique a lot!!!! Kinda miss all those crazy and carefree times we had together! Hahaha! Our laughing sessions in Amath, chem, EMATH! hahahahaah! Miss you all like mad! Sadly, you all will only be free after a year. And this sucks! I WANT MY SLEEPYOVER!!!! THEN WE CAN PROBE INTO EACH OTHER'S LIFE AND DIG OUT SOME JUICY NEWS!!!!! HINT HINT! HAHAHAA! PLEASE BE PREPARED!!!!
Oh shit, my stomach keeps churning. Feels so uncomfortable!

oh oh! Another thing! I am leaving Singapore on the 16th of May! Will be in JB for 6 days for this immersion programme that my course organised for us. Basically a hands-on experience for us regarding hotel operations and FnB. We will be living in a resort for that 6 days. Good deal you know! We paid only $227 for 5 nights of stay! Woo~ With complimentary kbox and bowling! One night each!!! AWESOME! Hahah! Wish me luck okay!

Okay, gtg!
Shall update SOON! HAHHA! SOON~~~~~

BYE!
Jaljayo!
Saranghaeyo!

-希

Damn! I thought I posted one entry previously! IT WASN'T POSTED! NVMMMMM, I will redo that post soon. When I have more time to breathe. haha!

Technology will be the ultimate weapon that will ruin the human race.

What's your view?

I say yes.

One very good example is the nuclear power. Technology gave rise to nuclear power and nuclear weapons. The effect of the explosion of any nuclear weapons causes massive damage to not only the country bombed but the whole world. It takes centuries for the environment to recover. Radiation from such explosions affects thousands of people and these thousands of people will die from it. People will turn deformed and all sorts of nonsense happens. All it takes is for one of those political leaders high up there to decide to plant one bomb and poof! Everyone's gone.

Just like what Albert Einstein once said, "World War IV will be fought using sticks and stones" for till then, there is nothing left for the human race.

From digging of fossil fuels to nuclear bombs, which of these aren't the actions that humans are doing that will eventually make themselves suffer?

We keep fighting. Attacking and defending. Everything we are sacrificing is just for that disgusting word we call power.

How awesome. I do not blame anyone. I blame ourselves. That creepy thing in us. That greed. That want for more.

-希

Hi,
currently, il est douze heures cinquante-et-un and I am not yet sleeping. I've cleared my tutorials yesterday so I am currently relaxing a bit and enjoying the music. Feels good the enjoy the music and sing along. How peaceful! Love this! Life's good! Even if it isn't for now, it will be! Trust me! Haha! Meeting some of my classmates at dhoby ghaut for lunch tmr. Then we will be visiting the National Museum to have a look at the Pompeii exhibition. Hope I don't freak out. Hope others don't freak me out! I'm not exactly looking forward for it tmr. But that doesnt mean that I don't feel like going. Just that I am not thatttt excited. Mainly cos I am lazy. haha! expected. Kinda feel like going home earlier tmr. Hmmm...shall see how tmr.

-希

Yo everyone!

I feel like I did not make a wrong choice by going to SP. And now, I feel so thankful for being selected to join SPOT. SPOT is giving soooo many chances to make my poly life so exciting and meaningful. I know I totally sound like some SP ambassador but honestly, I feel so enriched. Okay, not yet but will be.

I am given chances to go to China sichuan and cambodia for OCIP in March. In April, I will be going to Indo, Riau islands, Telunas for leadership camp. Telunas is this damn pretty and awesome place. Best part: It's free! I'm also going to Bintan for CIP in september too. My econs teacher also approached me and asked whether I will be interested to be part of the organising committee for the Bintan trip. Of course, I was more than willing. Currently, I am also part of the organising committee for this year's Freshmen orientation camp. I'm in events! I know it does sound as awesome as JC's going to cool countries like japan, korea, europe but to me it is. I feel that it is super enriching and meaningful. I am sure I will be able to view life and the world differently after I go for all these CIP programs. We will never know how good our life is until we have gone through the hard life of others! I think it's time for me to face reality and make my contribution as a human being of this world. Though it is small but I am sure it will make differences in the lives of others.

HAHAHAHAHAHA! OMG, I sound so SS. I sound as though I am answering the qns for Miss Universe. HAHA! Oh well, but that is what I really feel. SP plans to interview SPOT people for poly forum and pre-u seminar too. I don't mind going. Gives me lotsss of exposure and trains my presentation skills! And most imptly, improves my knowledge too. But come on, with my pathetic amt of general knowledge, I don't think I wanna go there and embarrass myself. Hahahah! Shall see how.

okay, gtg now~
bye peep~
Haengbokasaeyo!

-希