I am badmooding now. Feeling very unhappy and annoyed. About wat? I don't know. My moodswings again. I don't really know wat to say now but I know I want to say something.Ok nvm, I shal just talk abt something.

So, firstly, Yesterday's cycling was really fun. I don't know why it was fun. I just felt very happy. I don't think you all understand what I am saying. Ok, it's like normally if I went for this kind of outings with not very fun people I won't think that the outing was fun. But for yesterday, I still thought that it was fun. Yeah.
But there was one scary part. I honestly felt like I don't know what to do. Sometimes there are just some people who don't seem that much they way they are on the surface. We need more patience to straighten our thoughts to handle scary situations well. Anyway, someone definitely owes me a good explanation on what actually happened. If you are reading now, be prepared. But I doubt you are reading too. I will soon declare the second person from class failed from reading my blog. Soon.
Recently, I am turning more and more, how to say, erm, straightforward? I prefer more straightforward forms of expression. Like, I really don't like it when people keep things within themselves. I won't don't like them for that. But I will feel veryyyyy annoyed for not being able to know what they actually feel. Be it because of me or not, I don't care. They better tell me, if not I will feel unhappy. In a way, I think it's good cos I am more and more true to myself. However, I think it is very bad too cos I will slowly turn very blunt? I don't know. Sometimes, I keep telling myself that I need to control what I am saying. Not everyone can take it. For example my suans and sarcasm. There are people outside with very weak hearts. I need to control my self if not I will just give them a heart attack. I am trying. Trying to be more quiet. But it takes time yeah. If only I can know how much every person I am in contact in can take. Like that, I will know what to say. Don't tell me to stop being sarcastic or stop suaning people. I can't. It really is in me alrd. Sadly. Life will be even more boring without all these tools.

Saturday will be Bel's birthday party at ecp again. I think I will most probably meet madcow then go together or something. The train ride from Pioneer all the way to Bedok is just tooo much to bear. DAMNNNNN LONG!!!! I am excited to see excos again. But I am also scared to meet more people, esp. AC people. I am quite sure tons of them will come. I don't want to have weird feelings. I will most probably keep to the excos. If they happen to somehow abandon me, I will go to seaside and emo. HAHA! I actually like it. It feels good.HAHA!

Anyway, I feel soo much better aft typing all these. I know you guys are busy and most probably won't be seeing this anytime soon. Study hard people! Do well and be promoted okay! All the best guys! I will also do my best for the exams. I need to cover alot of chapts i am not good in. Everyone just press on! Me too! I am looking forward to the 5 weeks of holidays aft my 2weeks of exam!!!

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