Today is Friday! Haha, not much of a difference anyway. Today, had lessons as usual. After lessons, went moberly to sing k but had to wait till 4. So Amos, Hui Shan, Jasmine, Unnie, Geraint, Salleh and I killed time at the moberly cafe playing games and telling ghost stories. I was sooooo freaking scared!!! Haha, the guys don't seem to be scared AT ALL. Pro! The games we played were like heart attack and all the slapping games. Ouch, super painful. My hand went totally red. Haha, everyone including the guys, 使出全力地打! The thing is, I did not get a chance to hit them at all! Super lousy at one of the games, not much of luck today. But the games really made us laugh like siaooo. Haha! Then at 4, went to sing k. Paid $2, quite cheap but the songs are really VERY not up to date. The tv image is blue in colour somemore. For the first time in my life, I only sang 2 songs in a K session. Luckily, I only paid 2 bucks! They tried to find english songs but it was soo limited. And I dunno a lot of english songs, so yeah. Haha, Unnie, Salleh, Geraint and I all sang, the rest shy. Unnie sang normally. Geraint sang SUPER weirdly. He sang using his bass voice and he sounded like some human-eating monster!!! But was SUPER funnyyyy! Haha! Because of that session, I can never look at him the same way as before!!! Omg, scary image! Anyway, I don't think I'm going back to moberly to sing any time soon. Haha, unnie said that she will bring Geraint and I to the korean karaokes. HAHA!

I guess, there will be times when we feel very inferior. You would want to think that people think of you normally but sometimes, psychoing yourself doesn't work well. I am not hoping for anything, just wonder when I will get the chance to understand. But I guess it isn't going to come anytime soon. People say different things but it's hard to convince me. I know myself the best I guess. I should just study and don't think too much since thinking so much will not get me anywhere. Though it's sad to know the truth but I guess I can use other forms of happiness to cover it up? I already saw this coming it's just that I choose to not think about it. You call this self-denial and not facing reality?

-希