I do have some attitude problem right?
Yeah, I guess I do. That's why I can make a mistake without having much thoughts on it and in the end it actually ended up a big deal. After some thoughts, yes, I did wrong but why do I have this unbalanced feeling? Sometimes I really do think that I am more disadvantaged. But am I thinking too much? Being stupid? Or just being childish? But I'm still a kid afterall right? Sometimes I wonder if they feel that I am mature enough to not think that they are biased. In actual fact I am immature. I do feel hurt when I get scolded for some teeny weeny thing and the others just get a simple lecture for so many things they have done. I would think, "Why doesn't she flare off? I would." It's not that I don't think, it's just that I choose to not think of it. But I know that it is always there, somewhere deep down inside and I chose to bury it and not look at it. Yes, when I think of these, I do feel that this is unfair. But I still tell myself to forget about it. Who can be so perfect and be so impartial? I can't. So I cannot anyone else to be. Yeap, I should just be like before. Forget it and don't think about it. Thinking too much just bring about more tears. Right? I don't want my tears to become more worthless than they already are.

-希